What a wonderful week in the creative world that I get to wake up and go to sleep in.  The time spent with the clients in the gym is continuing to amaze, inspire, and awaken me to what has always been within me.

Ever since Jordan’s extreme electrical storms in his head have gone away his brain has evolved.  This has been in process since we first began 22 months ago when Diane came in and asked me the question of whether we could help Jordan.  Now when I look at him or interact with him he is really coming out of his head and into the room.  This is so awesome for me to be part of as it mirrors my own journey and leaving the confines of my head and coming into the room and co creating experiences with others and myself.  As long as Jordan continues to come into the room he will continue to heal.  That is powerful, that is truth.  I am watching him get confident, creative, and almost arrogant.  Here is a 50 pound kid who has spent 20 months wrestling with 2 guys with a combined weight of 380 pounds 5 days a week for up to 2 hours per session.  He is learning to create more and more movement.  He gave Diane the most beautiful gift last week, as she was recalling the experience of him standing up in front of her, going up onto his toes a couple of times then sitting down all with perfect form.  I could sense Diane being almost overwhelmed (my interpretation) as she told me the story.  As she told me this Jordan was still and I sat listening watching her eyes.  It seemed that part of her was still in processing mode of it all.  I am constantly aware that for 9 years there was no controlled movement and now 22 months later he stands up and sits down with perfect form (Diane’s words).  How do you process that?  Even though the time line has created many many experiences where he was showing us all that the intellegence within him is reconnecting the circuits in his head, still for someone so intimately connected with him I can only imagine what it must be like.  I asked her if I could give her my 2 cents on what had happened.  Even though I was not there I could feel what had happened.  I began by telling her that almost every day Romi gives Lea a present to show her how much she loves her.  I said Jordan was doing the same thing, he wanted to say thank you for all the hard work, for opening up his world, for loving him no matter what, for giving him a shot at being whatever he will be.  As I said this to her Jordan began to talk and become animated, he reached his hand to her.  It was beautiful.

Morgan is beginning to move her legs without any positional assistance.  She has been co creating her movements in the gym with such clarity, I have felt for a while her body doing this.  She came in last week and told me that she was moving her legs towards her chest, as she told me this I could hear her words and feel her energy.  I interpreted that she was a bit hesitant (not in any kind of a negative way) while recalling the story.  We talked about how she was able to use with positional assistance her low back, quads, and calves when she came to us and has been working everyday to add in the glutes, hamstrings, hip flexors, and tibias anterior.  Well that is happening, she is creating it.  She has a radiant glow to herself now, a silent power, a knowing that she is indeed creating her world to match her vision of what she wants.  I am just happy to be involved in the process.

Greg had his best week of moving his toes, fingers, and arms.  His pressure sore is healing slowly but this week we got word that it is almost closed up.  We have not done much physical movement with him, instead the process has been getting him back inside his body and reconnecting the circuits.  This process is amazing to be part of, to hear him tell his triumphs, his frustrations, his insights.  We were playing with him creating finger and arm movements on his right side the other day and he said that he figured out that the huge pain in that arm helps him to focus in and create movement.  Excuse me?  What did you just say?  My heart opened up.  What an insight he just had.  The pain was focusing him to create, not pushing him in the other direction.  This was huge for him, I did not lead him there.  He found it all by himself.  I told him that was beautiful.

Today is Vickie’s last day in the gym, she is going back to her life close to Nelson.  I will miss our time together but have gained so much from being with her.  The journey she has been on since being here has been fun to watch and even better to be part of.  When she came to us in April she had already created most of the circuitry.  My job was to show her what she did, and guide her to improve to whatever extent she would here, and how to maintain and grow her creative movements.  A little bit before 2 months in Vickie was doing some amazing things.  She was doing stairs, 2 at a time in every direction (forward, backwards, sideways, even diagonally)  what a day that was.  I was blown away and saw her vision of herself and what she is capable of expand beyond anything she knew in her brain.  I think her heart always knew.  Well she went away for a week right after that and into life.  She came back and her body had compressed.  When I thought about this I was amazed by the gift she was being given.  Yes we were not able to safely create the same movements as before.  What she was given was a view into how to bring her body back from compressed and tight to open and mobile.  For someone who does not have the ability to come in everyday and co create movements, she was to be shown through experience how to take care of herself.  She says she is ready to leave and be on her own, movement wise.  I will continue to support her in whatever way she creates for me.

So the other day Viktor and I were standing on a bluff over looking the beautiful ocean.  I was seeing my test, asking myself what lies on the other side of my pain threshold?  I do not know the distance of the test, figure it would be 5-10 minutes of running barefoot non stop over rocks from baby head size to the size of a quarter.  I wanted to know what would happen.  So as I began the uncomfort in the feet was present, did I really want to create this?  Who said that?  Show yourself.  The voices came and went, good/bad, stop/go, all the usual suspects.  I would find the perfect cadence and stride length for the style of rocks (size, shape, depth) where I would float through the hips over smoothly without pain.  Then the rocks would change someway and I would sink into them and my whole body would light up until I would find a new cadence or stride, that is when the voices would begin to yell in my head.  STOP this is enough.  Who said that? Show yourself to me.  This went on and off for the duration of the test.  Afterwards as I lay on the grass at clover point looking at the dance between the Olympic mountains and the sun my answers began to show up.  Water.  Water moves so perfectly, it will always find the most efficient route.  Given enough time it can destroy rock, I have seen this so much with such clarity.  Just go to Moab and it is evident.  The translation:  There is a perfect amount and direction of focus to accomplish anything.  It is not done by onlooking and thinking.  It is done by being in it and not resisting it but moving with it and creating from it.  What is it?  I think that would be a perfect question to just ask, if I try to answer it then I would be in my head retelling things I have read or heard.  The more I opened up to what was happening on the rocks the more my intellegence moved me at the right speed and form, almost effortlessly.  The more my mind resisted, the more pain.  When I went into the pain and continued through it I found the effortless flow.  That is what was shown to me, that was the answer to my question.  That is what I created.

I was talking on the phone to an amazing client/ friend, Rob the other day and telling him what was going on in my creative world.  He said “so everyone around you is learning how to create their own life?  Beautiful.”  I was shown this again.  Thank you Rob.  I am so honored and blessed to be creating my life so that others may come and interact with me and open up to creating their own life.  I cannot imagine living any other way.  I love to watch as people open up to this TRUTH.  Well Romi is waking up and I get to go play with her before work.  Yippie.

smilen jj